I thought I was OK. I thought I wasn’t homesick at all as I managed to call my parents at least once a week and call/ text my sisters regularly. I thought I’d be OK as long as Felix was here (don’t get me wrong… you can still be homesick when you have a wonderful husband who loves you very much.) I thought I should be OK because many other people are in worse situations.
But I was wrong. I am so homesick.
I guess it got worse after we moved here. I don’t have many friends (fortunately we are in a great ward. People are so nice to us). I had been through several big life changes in the past few months: graduated, married and moved to a new place. I really miss my family, I miss my friends, I miss Hong Kong, and I miss Utah (YES! So much!).
I didn’t realize I was homesick until I read this talk given by President Eyring. It was so random – this talk is about Holy Ghost – it shouldn’t be related to homesick at all. I just had this feeling that I should read it. And as I was reading how President Eyring and his dad loved his mom, I thought about my mom immediately. He talked about his mom passed away and his dad was very sensitive to the spirit and had strong faith that he would see her in heaven. I thought about my mom and how hard/sad she felt when my grandma and grandpa passed away. Although I was only nine, I still remember she was the one who cried the most in my grandpa’s funeral. I had never seen her cry before. I so regret for treating her bad when I was living at home – she was an orphan(my grandma passed away before I was born)- how did her manage to put up with my bad temper? I wish I could have been a better daughter.
I also can’t imagine how my dad felt after my grandma passed away – he had always been a very, very good son – he would do whatever my grandma wanted him to do, he just loved her so much. Fortunately mysister was home during that period of time.
It’s so hard to realize that we are growing up and our parents are getting old at the same time. We always assume our parents would be there anytime for us – I know they would – but we also have to realize that they are growing old and it’s time for us to take good care of them. We should be there for them when they need us. Time passes by very fast.
What are we doing to show our parents our love?