(This post has been sitting in my draft folder for two months)
I was really frustrated about my job search in the past few weeks.
There were about 30 different résumés and cover letters in my job application folders… Friends and families asked me to explore the area better and not to worry that much. I really DIDN’T want to worry but I couldn’t help.
“What if no one want to hire me? Forever?”
“I have graduated for three months… Unemployed since then… and…
(The above was from two months ago)
Now I got a part-time job at an airline: not related to my major or nothing close to what I want to do (but I am learning interesting stuff, which is good.) I am also interning at a museum and doing some side projects for my relative. On the positive side, I am able to learn new things, pay my bills, and do things I love to do (at the museum and for my relative).
But sometimes I still feel like a failure and don’t know what exactly I have to do. Why am I here in Michigan? What does God want us to do here? What am I supposed to do? I still haven’t found out the answers yet. I don’t know what’s the best job for me and my family (aka Felix). I don’t know what would make me happy!
I know He knows. I just have to wait and do my best at the same time. I know I am not patient enough. Life is so hard for me lately – but I have faith. (I guess I can have faith and be sad at the same time.) Things will be OK if I can hold on… I need to grow and learn. I need to RELAX.
Sorry I am being negative again… But I can’t help! People said happiness is a choice, but it’s not always the case… I just learned that.